Since a year back I have always wondered if this was all a dream, and that one day when I wake up everything will be back to how my life was 3 years back from now. Every time I think about this my stomach churns, ribs stiffens, appetite pales and fades and all I want to do is to hide under my comforter and pretend alls okay and dandy. How do I ever get out of this disposition that keeps me in this constant cloud of negativity.
Most occurrences in life are as forgettable as the next.
The great moments and truly horrible ones, they are the memories that remain etched.
The series of events that happened were so unfathomable, all so realistic and harsh.
I used to be so stuck, always reproaching myself and reviewing all the situations that could make everything turn out better.
The past year I've created a perfect facade, being the utmost Virgo in front of my closest friends and my family, even towards your entire family.
I have always thought I couldn't live without you. I have always wanted you back.
This time, things are so different.
I probably became so much stronger, became my own friend and told myself to stop circling around the same problem, what I have indeed been committing myself to the past year.
Bottom-line, I have never regretted a single moment together, every single decision I made.
I do not blame the circumstances we are in, never blamed you and never wanted anything more that we can manage.
Thank you for all that you've done and I am appreciative of the memories we have together.
I ll give myself what I deserve and I hope you do too.
Wallowing is bad and memory is important; thank you ikr, you make me really haps.